Through The Eyes Of My Alpha

Chapter 39

Through the eyes of my alpha Chapter 39

NADIA. “Nadia, everything I showed you and everything I told you was true. The only thing I withheld was that information. I don’t want my past to remind you…” “Of Elliot? Of how he was forcing himself to me?” I scoffed and laughed: “And here I was believing you were the one left behind.

That Andrea was the bad person here.

When in fact…” I couldn’t say it.

join telegram for latest update Despite everything he told me, I couldn’t find it in my heart to say that he was a ‘monster’ like Elliot.

Because he wasn’t.

He was never my monster.

But he certainly was for her, for Andrea.

I clamped my hand over my mouth as I struggled to stop myself from sobbing, but I couldn’t.

This is all too much for me now.

I walked away from Riley, but I didn’t even know if I wanted him to follow me or not.

Maybe I’m stupid or plain crazy because, despite everything, my heart was still beating for him.

Maybe because of the mate bond.

It was the only logical reason, because how could I love someone like him?

I didn’t notice when I entered our room.

I just found myself tucked inside the blanket, my body in a coiled position as I sobbed my heart out.

Elliot didn’t touch me either, but he looked at me in a lewd way, and I wondered if Riley was like that to Andrea.

So many things were running through my mind.

I was trying to justify Riley’s ways because the Goddess knew that if those words hadn’t come from his mouth, I would never have believed he was capable of such a thing.

Goddess, why me?

Why Riley?

I woke up with a pounding headache and it took a while before it registered where I was and what happened before I fell asleep.

It was too dark now.

I clutched the blanket closer to my chest at the same time the bathroom door opened and Riley came out of it, freshly showered and already wearing a shirt and sweatpants.

He saw that I was awake, so there was no use in pretending that I wasn’t.

“You’re awake.

I brought you food.

You didn’t eat anything the whole day.

” “What time is it?

” “Almost nine in the evening.

” “I just want to sleep.

”.

“Okay…” Silence “Can I sleep here?

” He asked, his voice sounding too low and hoarse.

“No.

” “Okay.

Goodnight then.

” I didn’t reply.

I waited for him to move out of the room, but he didn’t.

“Nadia… About the others.

They didn’t do anything wrong.

If anything, they were not in agreement with what I did to Andrea.

They all stayed to make sure I didn’t hurt her.

And they didn’t tell you because I ordered them not to.

I used the Alpha command on them.

So everything here is my fault.

Don’t blame them or take your anger out on them.

Especially with Jenny.

If you need to let it out, I’m just here.

I’ll take all the blows.

” I didn’t know what to say.

I was glad Jenny didn’t do it intentionally.

But then it all pointed to one thing – Riley alone was guilty of everything that was causing me pain.

“Eat something.

Or at least drink the chocolate drink I made for you just so you have something in your stomach.

” “Hmmm.

” “Goodnight, Nadia…” I heard him let out a deep sigh before the door opened and closed.

I waited for a few minutes because I got the strength to get up from my bed.

My eyes darted to the food trolled by the couch, and my stomach rumbled.

I was hungry, but my mouth wasn’t craving anything I picked up the cup of hot chocolate instead, it was still warm.

I sat on the wide window sill facing the forest.

I pressed the cup to my lips, and just as I was about to tip it over for a drink, I saw a figure on the ground.

Hunter.

Arrow whimpered in my head, missing her other half, and I felt the same.

But we just couldn’t give in to our emotions.

I opened the window a little, just enough for a breeze of air to come in.

I didn’t know why I opened it, but I was hoping if Hunter would let out a growl or a howl, then I wanted to hear it, to pacify my pain and Arrow’s too.

Hunter sprang inside the forest and he was gone from my hindsight but it didn’t take long before a howl erupted into the thin air.

Hunter was howling to the moon, howling in anguish, and my heart clenched at his pain.

We were all hurting from this.

I woke up as the sun’s rays brushed against my skin.

I turned around, lying on my stomach and trying to sleep again, when I suddenly realized where I was.

My body jolted up as I sat and looked at my surroundings.

Why was I in bed?

I remembered pushing a sofa chair by the window and crunching up there, waiting for Hunter to come back from the forest, but I didn’t notice when I fell asleep. Published by Nôv'elD/rama.Org.

Did Riley come and place me on the bed?

Because I didn’t think the others would come into our room.

My eyes darted to the space beside me and I suddenly missed him.

My heart felt so heavy right now, seeing the empty, untouched side of his bed.

I wanted to mindlink him and ask where he slept or if he even slept, but I stopped myself.

There were still many doubts and questions in my head, and I had to face them first before I went head-on and faced Riley and his demons.

After I washed my face and changed into my day clothes, I went downstairs and went directly to the kitchen, hoping Riley wasn’t around.

As much as I missed him, I didn’t want to see him yet.

I saw Jenny sitting by the counter.

Just the person I wanted to see.

“Hi!

” I greeted her as I walked towards the other side, and opened the fridge, pulling out the milk and other things I could use to make some sandwiches.

“Luna…” She stood up, went to the dining table, and came back carrying a tray of food, placing it on the counter in front of me.

“I was just about to bring this upstairs for you.

They’re still warm.

” “Thank you.

” I smiled at her before placing everything I pulled out of the fridge back into its place.

“Is Riley around?

” “No.

He went with Beta Dominic to the other side of the territory.

They just left ten or fifteen minutes ago.

And I don’t think they’ll be back soon.

It will probably take up their whole day.

” I just nodded my head, biting my lip before speaking up again.

“Jenny… I’m sorry about my outburst yesterday.

It was wrong of me…” Jenny shook her head as tears started to pool in her eyes.

“You didn’t do anything wrong.

If anything, it was a good wake-up call for all of us.

” “Riley told me the truth about rolling off an Alpha command on the three of you, so you were hindered from telling me the truth.

So you really didn’t do anything wrong.

” “He also took it off yesterday, so if you want to ask me anything, I will be honest with you.

Although some parts would be painful, but I will try to explain.

” “I would love that.

It’s hard to ask Riley because everything cuts deeper when it comes from him.

” “The Alpha, he’s not a bad person… He’s just lost.

” “Do you like Riley as an Alpha?

I know you’re not from here.

” “I came from Alpha Jacob’s Pack.

And he’s a good one, so I know what I’m saying if I say Alpha Riley is a good one too.

” “So Alpha Jacob knew what Riley did to Andrea?

” “He did.

But he never condoned it.

He actually helped Alpha Caspian, even though he and Riley were closer.

Well, I really don’t know how close, but that’s what Alpha Jacob’s Gamma told me.

Alpha Jacob and Alpha Caspian just recently got reconnected, but I guessed Alpha Jacob was smart enough to know what Alpha Riley was doing was wrong, so he wanted to help Andrea out of it.

” “Was it really that bad?

Did you know if he hurt Andrea?

” “Physically no.

” “Did he attempt to touch her?

”.

“That part I have no idea, but Andrea could have told me if the Alpha did.

And.

” “And?

” I asked, my brow furrowing as I laid the fork down.

I still didn’t have any appetite.

“I’m not sure if saying this would help or just hurt you more.

” “Say it…” “Andrea begged the Alpha to cancel the Luna ceremony, and the Alpha said…” She stopped, and my heart stopped beating as I waited for her to continue.

“He will cancel the ceremony if she sleeps with him.

” My hand clamped over my mouth as a gasp left my throat.

I felt my lips quivering as tears threatened to fall, He was so cruel.

“Wait… Listen, please… Andrea agreed because she was desperate, but… The Alpha didn’t touch her.

Andrea told me the Alpha didn’t even look at her when she showed up in his room and pushed her away instead.

I know it was the truth because that night, the Alpha asked me to pick up Andrea, and I found her outside the Alpha’s door.

” I closed my eyes, trying to stop my tears.

I didn’t want to hear anything more.

“And then, the next day, the Alpha had a talk with the Beta and told him he didn’t know that Andrea would actually show up because he knew how much Andrea valued herself.

But he had no intention of forcing himself on her.

And then he ordered the Beta to cancel the ceremony.

Beta Dominic said the Alpha told him, that he already accepted that he would be sleeping alone in his bed for the rest of his life.

We think at that moment, he already knew he would be letting Andrea go soon.

” “He must have loved her so much that he was willing to let her go already…”.

Jenny smiled at me.

Her hand reached for mine at the top of the counter and squeezed it gently.

“I think he was willing to let her go because his attention was already somewhere else.

If I was right, he knew you already existed.

That’s why he was always driving back and forth to Alpha Darvon’s territory.

He was already looking for you.

” “But if he didn’t smell me, he would probably still force Andrea to be his Luna.

” “We would never know.

Maybe yes.

Maybe not.

I can’t read Alpha Riley, no one can.

But he has his own struggles.

Did you know why he was pushing himself to Andrea?

” “He loves her.

” “Maybe, maybe not.

But Sebastian told me the Alpha just wanted someone to stay with him.

Despite being good at almost everything, he’s a very insecure man.

He thought he was not good enough for someone to actually like him.

” “Funny, because Beta Dominic said the same thing.

” “Because it is the truth.

He used the blood pact between their fathers so he could take hold of Andrea.

He thinks no one will like him anyway.

At least Andrea can stay because she has no other option.

” “Why would he even think he was not good enough for someone?

” “I think it’s his mother’s abandonment that left him with that impression.

Growing up, Sebastian said, the Alpha would always stare at mothers, but he never talked about his own.

He kept it all inside him.

Maybe he thought he was not good enough to make her stay.

” “For Goddess’ sake, he was only a baby when she left.

How would he ever think it was his fault?

“I don’t know.

Maybe it was what his father made him believe?

I actually don’t know Alpha Melvin, that’s his father, I never met him.

But Sebastian said he never took another Luna after she left, and he was always telling Riley the Luna post was just for his mother alone.

And I was guessing his father’s loyalty to his mother was making his hatred for her grow deeper.

How could she leave when his father was so loyal to her?

”.

“But it’s only one side of the story.

Maybe there’s something more.

” “That’s what I keep saying to Sebastian.

Because how could you, as a mother, just abandon your child?

” I didn’t know what to say anymore.

A part of me was hurting for my mate for what he must have felt about his mother, but a part of me was still scared of him.

Now that he found out I was his mate, would his obsession with Andrea shift to me?

Would he hold me against my will if I decided I didn’t want to be here anymore?