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Hushed Misery
Pierce's POVContent © NôvelDrama.Org.
Kelly is sleeping on the long couch while I'm sitting on the single couch across from her. I wanna touch her. I wanna kiss her but whenever I think about how she hid the truth from me even when she said she already forgave me makes me so angry. She made me believe that the child I learned to love was another man's child. My own flesh and blood doesn't even know that I,m her real father. It breaks my heart. I kept on making my mind believe that I deserve this because I hurt her but I just couldn't ignore the pain,
My daughter almost died. I couldn't accept that my daughter had to go through a life and death situation first before I learned about the truth, Why does it have to be like that? My daughter almost died. I almost lost her without even knowing that she's my own flesh and blood.
"Daddy Pierce..." That soft voice interrupted my thoughts.
I quickly walked towards her bed and sat on the chair beside it. I caressed her cheek. "You're awake."
She stared at me. "Are you crying daddy Pierce?"
I touched my cheek and I realized she's right. I immediately wiped it and smiled at her. "No, princess. I'm not."
She smiled and caressed my fist. "Does your wound hurt, daddy Pierce?"
My eyes dropped on my bruised fist. I was so angry and in pain that I punched the wall in the chapel of
I this hospital. I thought I already released all the anger, pain and disappointment but I was wrong. Whenever I see Kelly, I remember the pain. Was this the same pain she felt when I hurt her? Is she just punishing me for what I did before? "Daddy Pierce..."
"Just daddy," I said and smiled at my daughter again. "Call me daddy, princess. Just daddy."
She smiled and nodded. "Yes, daddy!"
I hugged her gently. I love my daughter so much. I have already loved her even without the truth revealed and I will never accept it if it happened that she considered Klay as her father. If that asshole didn't hurt Kelly, would she let him father my child? Thinking about it breaks me. I couldn't even picture it because even before I do, the anger in my heart is ruining the picture.
"Daddy, did you and mommy fight?"
My lips parted as I looked down at my daughter. "Why would you ask that?"
She looked at her mom, sad. "My mommy's eyes are sad, daddy."
I was lost for words. I don't know what to say, I can't tell her about what happened when she was unconscious. She's too young to hear it and too young to understand the adults.
"My mommy's eyes are always sad before we come here, daddy. But whenever we're with you, she's happy."
I swallowed hard. Guilt is slowly eating me wide-eyed. Our daughter noticed it too. I'm sorry, baby. I'm always the reason for your mom's sadness.
"Daddy, can I ask you something?"
I nodded and smiled at her. "Sure, sweetheart. What is it?"
She glanced at Kelly again before she leaned closer to me and whispered. "Do you know my daddy? I
mean my real daddy?"
My heart raced as my lips parted. I don't know what to say. I can just tell her that I'm her real dad but she might get scared or confused.
1 always see other kids with their mommy and daddy but I don't wanna ask mommy."
I looked at her with pain in my eyes. "Why didn't you ask mommy?*
"Because I feel like my daddy hurt my mommy before."
My heart ached this time. I couldn't take my eyes off of my daughter's curious eyes. She's too young and innocent for this
"W-Why did you think that way?" I asked with a hoarse voice.
"Mommy got sick one time and I heard her crying and she regretted loving my daddy."
I swallowed hard. "D-Did she mention a name in her sleep?"
""Yes!" She nodded. "She said Klay. Is Klay my daddy?"
Anger immediately reigns my heart because of her question. That asshole made Kelly traumatized. I clenched my jaws and shook my head as I caressed her cheeks and looked into her eyes intently. "Listen, princess. Klay is not your daddy." "But why is my mommy angry at him?"
I shook my head. "He's just someone in your mommy's past but he's not your daddy."
D-Does my daddy hates me?"
"No!" I immediately answered and shook my head. "No, princess. Of course not. Who would hate you??
She sobbed. "Then why isn't he visiting me? I don't know my real daddy. I want to see him."
I hugged her. To comfort her and hide the tears that rolled down my cheeks.
She's hiding pain and anger in her heart. I couldn't help but blame myself for this. I should've known. I should've felt the first time I saw her.
I was so stupid for not noticing it. The feeling. The happiness whenever she's with me. I was so in love with Kelly that I failed to notice that the strange feeling I have for Snow wasn't because I'm in love with her mother.
"I want to see my daddy! I want to meet him and I want to ask him why he left me and mommy..." She continued crying in my arms.
I want to tell her the truth. I badly want to tell her that I'm her real father but I don't wanna decide on this alone. In Addition to the fact that she's just a little kid. She won't understand the situation.
"Shh! Hush now, princess. You have a daddy. I am your daddy. I will be your daddy."
She looked at me with eyes full of tears. I gently wiped the tears as she stared at my face. If only you're my real daddy, mommy and I will never be sad again."
Hate Me
Hate Me
Kelly's POV
We went straight to Anderson's mansion after Snow got discharged. I want to take my daughter home now because I'm afraid Pierce would take her away from me. I felt so paranoid that I kept on staring at my daughter while she's talking and sitting on her father's lap. "Kelly, stay for tonight." Mrs. Anderson caressed my arm.
I don't know why she's not angry with me for hiding Snow's real identity. Perhaps, she already had a hunch even before the truth was revealed. I feel so embarrassed for what I did.
"I'm sorry..."
She smiled and shook her head. "Nothing matters more than you and my granddaughter's safety. I understand everything, Kelly."
I smiled and caressed her hand on my arm. I felt Pierce's eyes on me. When I looked at him, he immediately shifted his gaze back to our daughter.
I pressed my lips together and sighed. I decided to stay. I want to make sure that he won't take my daughter away from me. I need to talk to him.
I was thinking heavily in the guest room after dinner. I watched Pierce tuck Snow to bed and I went to the guest room after that, thinking about what I'm going to say to him.
It doesn't matter if he lash out at me. It doesn't matter if he won't forgive me. What's important to me is to make sure that he won't deprive me of the rights to be with our daughter...just like what I did to him.
After I gathered all my strength, I went out of the guest room and knocked on Pierce's room. I was careful because Snow is sleeping inside.
"It's open, Kelly."
I turned to the person who spoke. It was Phoebe, smiling gently at me.
"Uhmm... Is Pierce inside?"
She shook her head, "Pierce is in the pool area."
I immediately nodded. "Thanks, Phoebe."
"You're welcome."
After giving her one last smile, I went downstairs and went straight to the pool area. The things I wanted to say, every single word, were already playing in my mind, but as soon as I got close to Pierce who's sitting at the edge of the pool while drinking liquor, everything I memorized vanished.
1-swallowed hard. I was glued to the ground, standing a meter away from him while I'm facing his back.
"Phoebe, I told you I don't want to-" His words were left in the air when he looked at me and realized I'm not Phoebe.
I swallowed hard again as my heart started hammering against my chest.
Uh..
His eyes turned so cold that I couldn't help but hug myself because I could feel it.
"You should sleep now." He doesn't sound or look worned. He's...angry.
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I took a deep sigh. "Can.we...talk?"
He looked away and didn't utter a single word. I took it as a sign of his approval. Even when scared and nervous, I walked towards him and sat a meter away from him. Between us were a bottle of liquor and a shot glass.
"I just want to... apologize."
He hissed. "You're punishing me, right? You don't have to apologize."
I bit my bottom lip and slowly shook my head. "No! That's not true, Pierce. Hiding the truth about Snow wasn't my intention-"
"You were given so many chances to tell me the truth, Kelly. But you didn't. You choose to hide it from me. The only reason I could think of was because of what I did to you in the past-"
"It wasn't the reason, Pierce."
"Then what is the reason? Tell me..."
His eyes were scary. It's so scary because it's angry and...disappointed.
"I-I'm scared...
"Scared? Scared of what, Kelly? My daughter almost died! She had to get through the life and death situation first before I discovered the truth. What if something happened to her? Huh?"
1 looked down as I swallowed the lump in my throat. "I'm sorry...".
"My daughter was hiding the pain of not being able to meet her father! You didn't know that, Kelly! You! didn't know because you were busy nurturing your hatred-*
"That's not true!" I said as tears rolled down my cheeks. I quickly wiped it but it's too late because he already saw it.
His lips parted but his forehead creased.
My lips trembled as I swallowed hard again. "T-That's not true! God knows how much I want to be a perfect mother but I just couldn't. I was scared of getting hurt again. I was scared that my daughter would see how the people I love wounded my heart so badly. I was scared that she would get hurt too. I- protected my daughter too much and I'm sorry that I ended up hurting you."
I couldn't stop the emotions from pouring anymore. My tears won't stop rolling down my cheeks while he's staring at my face. I don't know what he's thinking, but the only thing I want to know now is what he's planning to do with my daughter.
I met his eyes as I gathered all the strength to say the words I wanted to say. I just need confirmation from him. A confirmation that he won't punish me in the most cruel way my mind could think of.
"P-Please, don't take her away from me. She's my life, Pierce. She's the thin bridge that's connecting me to my sanity. I'd lose my mind if I lost her. So please hate me all you want, but don't take my daughter away."