CEO Leo’s Baby Mama Is Back

Chapter 61 Heart to heart

DS FASHION HOUSE, LOS ANGELES.

Darby stared at the glass watching people move in a rush. There is always somewhere for the people of LA to rush to. It feels like the city is always so busy and crowded. Leo was getting married today and even though she is meant to be in attendance, she is instead standing in her safe space sipping on iced coffee and watching the city move at its full peak. Her lips tingled at the reminder of the kiss she had shared with Leo days ago.

It gave her sleepless nights and she almost felt guilty for it. At the same time, she keeps assuring herself that it wasn’t her doing. Leo had been the one who initiated the kiss, he should be the one feeling like his heart would rip apart for cheating on a beautiful lady like Chloe. On the other hand, it felt like she was being cheated out of her place. She should be in Chloe’s shoes. It does sound like a form of entitlement. But Darby can’t help but think of how different it would have been between herself and Leo if Abigail didn’t go on to spread lies about her. She would kill to turn back the hands of time and make things right. However, she has to feel grateful for the life she was able to make for herself despite the hard condition of things.

Checking her wristwatch it’s almost time to close up for the day. She had plans to visit her mother before returning home. It’s her movie night with Isabella and she would hate to miss it for anything. But for some reason, Darby feels the need to see her mother and probably have a heart to heart discussion with her. Returning to her office, she got her things, bid her assistants goodnight and Jenna. Before she got on the road she had called Maureen to affirm if they were home.

The last time Darby had popped in on them unannounced, the both of them had stepped out to see a mutual friend. She had to return home without getting to see any of them. Maureen assured Emma was home. Darby stopped by the grocery store to get some things she considers essential. Emma seem to be in a better mood when Darby got to the house, she was reading a romance novel while sipping on homemade lemonade and she looked extremely delighted to see her daughter.

“How are you doing?” Darby asked as she settled into the couch after dropping off the grocery bags in her hand on the kitchen island.

“I’m very fine thank you. How are you and how is your little one?” Emma asked as she poured the lemonade into another glass for Darby. “Thanks for the groceries.”

“It’s okay.” She received the filled glass with thanks, taking a sip from it. “He is very fine thank you and I am okay too. I hope you have been well? I can see that though. I’m glad you are taking your rest seriously.”

Emma beamed shyly, “I have you to thank for that. I know I don’t deserve this from you, Darby, but you still go ahead to help me. I am really grateful. But I would appreciate it more if you help me get a job instead, that way I can fend for myself and not be a burden to anyone.”

“I can understand you. Still it’s important that you are more about your health right now than any other thing please.”

“I will do that.” Emma replied.

They both stayed quiet for a long while, since they aren’t used to each other their conversations are a bit strained. However, Emma could sense that Darby has too much on her mind and wouldn’t have drove all the way down to the house to meet her when she could have called to ask about her health. Exhaling, she cleared her throat.

“Would you like to cook dinner with me, it’s almost time for it. That is if you don’t mind.” She stated.

Darby was a bit taken aback by the invite, but it sounded like something that would help her take her mind off a lot of things. Since she doesn’t have to worry about making dinner back at her house, she can as well burn some calories.

“Sure, what would you like me to help you with?” She asked with a smile.

Emma didn’t expect she would comply, but she asked anyway and it made her happy that Darby agreed to it. “Well, it would be nice if you cut up some veggies. With the groceries you brought along I can make Maureen’s favorite; fried rice and chicken curry. She has been craving for it for a while now.”

“Let’s do it then.” Darby sounded a bit excited to get to work.

The silence reigned again but it felt quite comfortable this time around. The two of them got to work with their thoughts roaming in the space. Darby smacked her lips as she felt tears prick at the back of her eyes.

“Would you have loved me if you didn’t need Noah’s approval?” She asked out of the blue.

Emma paused in the curry sauce she was turning. Licking her dry lips she let out a shaky breath. “It’s not like I never cared. I was just too self absorbed and worried of what would become of me if I do as much as counter him. It bothered me on how I would have to take care of a child on my own in the rugged streets of LA. All man for himself, no one cares about you. But I was probably the dumbest person on earth to ever think like that. I could have chosen to fight for your existence and shield you from so much hate. But I was clueless for years and I sorted for acceptance and happiness too, which I obviously would never get.” She chuckled dryly.

Darby sniffed back the tears as she tried to concentrate on the carrot she was dicing. “Sometimes I wish to turn back the hands of time. I remember how during my preteen years, I wished you had never birthed Abigail. I thought she was one of the reasons you wouldn’t even bat an eyelash at me. Also because she made my life a living hell, I just wanted to wipe her off the face of the earth. But as time went by I realized I don’t even have the energy to hate on her. I was more preoccupied with finding affection. It felt like everyone around me hated me because I was a produce of infidelity. I didn’t have any friend, not even one person wanted to associate with me. It felt like they all knew my story or I had some kind of bad luck trailing me.” The tears rolled uncontrollably and she didn’t bother to hold it back. “I…I…was so alone…mom. I don’t know how I survived it or gain courage to run off. Sometimes it felt like I was floating into nothingness. The first time I felt wanted and special was the night I spent with Sinclair’s father, he made my world beautiful. I slept well all through those times and I didn’t even mind that he ghosted me for weeks.” She snorted out a laugh. “That was how pathetic I was. Any crumb of affection was perfect for me. Even after five years I still don’t know what I want, I pretend it’s all fine and immerse myself in work and Sinclair. But what happens when my baby grows up and I can’t bend down to pick a pin anymore?” She paused to swallow down the lump in her throat. “Who would I go home to then? I’m so scared I won’t find anyone to really love me. The man I really want is taken.”This belongs © NôvelDra/ma.Org.

Darby’s shoulders shook hard with tears and Emma blinked sorrowfully as she tried to rub at her back. Guilt ate deep at her and she knows no matter how hard she tries, it won’t heal the pain poor Darby was feeling.

“I wish I can be a fairy godmother and rid you of your fears and pains, Darby.” Emma sobbed. “But I can’t, I am just as damaged too. And it’s all my fault. I could have chosen to be a better mother, I could have fought hard for you just like you did for your son. I can’t believe I even planned to kill you, abortion could go wrong and it didn’t occur to me to protect you. I know apologizing won’t solve anything. But I would like to plead with you Darby to let me help in the little way I can. I will do whatever it takes to change. Just for you, baby. I’m so sorry.”

Holding onto themselves tightly, they cried profusely soaking up in their tears.