Healing The Ruthless Alpha

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Healing The Ruthless Alpha

Sihana’s POV

“You did good,” Cahir commended as we entered our luxury suite. “You think?” If I had a tail, it’d be wagging but no matter how much I tried to hold back my happiness, it couldn’t be helped. The part of me that was starved of affection and validation surfaced despite how I tried to hide it.

“Your smile is pretty. An unfamiliar warmth spread through me, and then that fluttering in my stomach started back up.

“T – Thank you.” I ducked my head for no apparent reason but then I raised it back up, feeling ridiculous.

“I should make you smile more often,” he muttered to himself but those words made me

blush even more. “Now you see I am not useless, after all.” The words slipped from my mouth with no thoughts as I tried to understand why I felt like hiding behind my hair from what he said.

I was deep in thought when I noticed the uncomfortable silence in the room and felt a gaze piercing my face. Raising my head and pushing my hair from my filce, I met Cahir’s eyes boring into me.

“Who said you were useless?” He asked with steel in his voice. The intensity of his gaze made me want to took away but I held his eyes.

“I – The last time I said he treated me like shit, he stormed off in anger. We were getting along so well

that I don’t want to say anything to ruin the mood but he expected an answer and I had to say something so I spoke. “You said there was no need for the as a Luna.” He doubled back and I swallowed.

now

“I did?” He made a face of confusion. “When was that? They may not have been the exact words he used but they evoked the same meaning in my head.

“You know

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the day at the restaurant? You told me Alpha Blood functioned just fine without a Luna so there wasn’t a need for me to fill the position?” I reminded him of the words that plagued my mind, words that he didn’t even remember.

They may have been meaningless to him and he may not have expected me to take them to heart as I did, but I did. They hurt me too much to let go of. He basically called me useless that day and it reminded me too much of how the people in Silver Moon used to tell me I was worthless, how I should have died and let my mother live as there was no reason for someone like me to live.

“Leading a pack is a lot of work,” he started slowly. “It’s not something I expect would interest you.”

“You never asked me about that,” I murmured, rubbing my biceps. Aristo had said Cahir most likely said that because he didn’t want me to overwork myself with the work of leading a pack as the Luna but eded to hear it from Cahir himself. At that moment, I wanted Aristo to be right. I didn’t need to hear Cahir confirm my fears. This content © Nôv/elDr(a)m/a.Org.

“You are new in Alpha Blood, why should I bother you with the workload when I can handle it myself?” He asked with a frown that made me duck my head again. Did you interpret that as me calling you useless?” I shrugged, thankful he could not see my face

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“You have a talent for misunderstanding situations.” I raised my head and glared at him.

“What else was I supposed to understand from that? You were quite dismissive and after that, you made

Dima in maliar lar ma lasna tha,

du unica mired

Now that I understood things, it made sense that he was trying to protect me but he had never shown any sign that he liked me enough to protect me. The sudden Luna Ceremony he organized with all those reporters? The way he sold me off to Kade? Those weren’t things people did to someone they cared about. Heck, that Luna Ceremony put me on the radar of many people if really his enemies were after me! They bothered me so I asked about them.

“And the way you traded me off to Kade? The Luna Ceremony with all the reporters in my face? It felt humiliating. Did I misunderstand them too?” I asked.

We’d just put down our bags and taken our seats. I shouldn’t be saying all these things which may cause an argument but the words flowed without stop.

“The Luna Ceremony was for your benefit. Now everybody knows your name and your status. If anyone attacks you, they can’t pretend they were unaware of your identity and before they do, they would think twice about the enemy they are about to make. Basically, that was me announcing to the world that you were under my protection. I thought women

were supposed to like things like that?” Exasperation coloured his words and his brows furrowed while hist lips pressed together. What woman would like the world in her face without prior preparation!?

“You should have told me, I muttered, my brows mimicking his.

“I didn’t think you would misunderstand.” He sighed. “And Kade, that was a coincidence. I did tell come back for you but you didn’t believe me.”

“A coincidence?”

“Yes. I got

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yould

a magnificent deal out of Kade. It wasn’t intentional – I hadn’t planned it but the idea popped up during the conversation so I ran with it.”

It seemed he wasn’t accustomed to considering people’s feelings. He wasn’t accustomed to having a mate since he never had one. Maybe – Was Laura right? Goddess, she may have been. I felt

ridiculous and guilty that I constructed this image in my head, one in which Cahir hated me and wanted to punish me.

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He didn’t need a reason I’d found out in Silver Moon that people didn’t need a concrete reason to hate others. Most people in Silver Moon didn’t have a reason to hate me, they just followed the trend. I felt I was easy to hate maybe there was something about me that annoyed others so I was used to being hated without reason. I didn’t think of why Cahir would hate me.

“It felt like – When I said you made me feel like shit, it was – because – all these things put together – it felt like you didn’t want me and I was just a warm body for you and it made me hate myself and 1-1 couldn’t gather my thoughts into one sentence so I blubbered and spluttered until I shut up, mortification making me duck my head.

What would he think of me when I couldn’t express myself in simple sentences?

“Do you not understand who you are?” I looked up at him to see a blazing expression on his

face. “Do you think I am blind? You were there when Kade offered me a mouthwatering deal just to keep you and you think any sane man would not want you?” – I know healers are coveted but I trailed off.

“Yes, but that’s not it. I have met a few people kissed by the goddess but only one of them is a healer. You- Sihana, you may have been kissed twice but you don’t even understand the power you carry.”

Why

d I feel bad that he wanted me for my ability and nothing else? Was that any better than wanting

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me for my body?

“Sihana, you’re too much for me to want you as only a warm body.” His eyes trailed down my body. “Although your body – His voice deepened before he paused. “I want you pinned beneath me every night. I’ve told you before that I want to split you open see you on my cock every hour but that’s a small reason I want you.” I clenched my legs together, feeling my body tingle down there.

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“The thing is you are like an unexpected gift – I’m not sure how I got you but you’re mine. Don’t ever think that anything I do has anything to do with not wanting you because I want you too much and it may be a problem.”

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