Runaway Alpha

I am not sure about what this elder is saying to me. But he said that thing and… regret? Will I make a choice i my life that I will regret?Property belongs to Nôvel(D)r/ama.Org.

Just what does he mean by that?

Looking at my hand who is holding the key he had given… I can’t help but run my thoughts.

It was the very first time that an elder talked to me like this. Yes they do say some words for me but in the presence of my parents… but today, It seems to be different

The elder left leaving me in silent. I never knew whether I am someone who have the right to say this but then why do they make things so uncertain?

Why do I feel like something is not right?

They often tell things that are different in the ordinary language… as if they are playing it safety. Just like beating around the bush

Even so, what the elders said to me was somehow annoying at some point.

They always said that freedom will always be in our way

That is pertaining to those who are a little wolves just like me

It’s just like… how they prepare the prophecy and declare it to all of the wolves in our village … I am not sure if they do have the authority to say that they prioritize the freedom of everyone. Haven’t they realized that they are just giving a shackle and chains towards us?

Or maybe it is just me who feel that way since the very existence of my family was already a huge thing but now that I am declared and seen by the people as someone who is also part of that prophecy the prophecy… the burdens became much heavy. It keeps getting heavier as time goes by. How… annoying

And now, who would have thought that I can acquire this thing?

I look at the key who seems to be attached in this necklace. It was given to me by the elder a while ago

A pass or a permit to enter the chamber in the library, I am just thinking about it last time but I didn’t even think of me getting one

Wait a minute… if I get a thing like this

Do it make me the youngest wolf who acquire such thing and privilege??!

I can’t help but gasp about what I had just realized

Why did they do such thing?!

I am not certain about their reason for doing this but what I know is that it will truly give me a worst commotion!

Even my father… he isn’t this young when he got that privilege

Now that I think of it, I wonder what kind of contribution in our village did I make. Is it somehow related to the snake like beast that attack the center of the vilage?

I rumble my hair as I find it annoying. Why do they always make things so complicated for me

I lay on my bed and stared at the ceiling for a short while

Yeah, I’m not sure whether I should be thankful or not about the thing that they had given to me

I have a great sense that this thing will surely cause a commotion especially to those who are my upper classmates.

I mean they would truly question why someone like me got a thing as this. They will surely think that the elders are biased. For them, it will surely looks like that. That… my father used his power to do this..

Surely all the bad things that I did will be brought up again. Just like how I ditch classes and just how I don’t show my respect to some of the elders who are looking down on me

Even so, I wouldn’t want to waste my time attending any classes that I already know all the lessons they’re talking about. It just looks like I am wasting my time if I stay there

And about the situation of my upper classmate who are looking down at me, it is not as if I care about their opinions. In the first place, why would I respect them if they don’t even respect me as a person?

I let out a sigh and lay on my bed comfortably

It would be good if I can just run from this

I always feel like I doesn’t belong in here to begin with.

I always feel like something is lacking

Even so, what else can I do other than be a good son for my father and mother and be a good brother for my two little siblings?

It is not that I am thinking of being a good person in all of the people in our village because I know that when I try to open up and showed them all of the good sides and me… when they saw even a slightest part of my bad side. Surely, they will lose all of those good thinking about me.

What I mean to say is that people always suck that way

Whether you do good things or not, you can still be treated with someone who is bad since people are not perfect

It is not that I care about this whole shit of the world but then I can say that even in our pack, we might be living peacefully but there are lots and tons of problems to deal with

Indeed life is so toxic

Letting out a deep sigh as I feel so much annoyed about what I am thinking

I should be resting, why do I always make things so complicated for me. I was closing my eyes but then I somehow feel like there are small little lights that are showing itself in front of my eyes

I the open my eyes since I feel certain that my conclusion is correct. Truly, there are small light fragments who are showing itself in the very front of my eyes. I analyze it and realize that they have the same vibes with those I saw last time.

My hand was about to move and reach it but then I halt as I feel like I shouldn’t do what I am thinking.

I bet they will disappear when I did that again. Will they?